Always Changing...

I woke up this morning (well really the third time thanks to Liam) thinking wow my life really has changed. Last night I went to dinner with a few ladies for book club. That right there...book club? me? Yes, and I really enjoy it. Sure I'm the youngest one there by more then a year or two but I really enjoy the company of these women. They talk about more then what they wore yesterday, drama or bad talking others. Not to mention I look up to these women as mothers also. They seem to be the perfect balance of themselves, mothers and wives. For anyone who is all of those things you know it takes work to keep it all balanced. People say everything changes when you get married, well it does a little, but your world will really get turned upside down when you have kids. I used to never be caught wearing flat shoes unless it was flops to the beach and even then those flops were normally wedges. Now my heels only come out for special occasions. Sure I do tend to still do my hair and makeup everyday, even for the gym. I don't dress in all designer everything anymore. Sure I still love clothes and fashion, but my love for Liam is so beyond all of that. To me its more fun to shop for Liam now or I use rationalization when it comes to buying clothes, like how many pairs of jeans does one girl need, or black tops? Not to mention I dress more conservative now then I used to. Low cut tops with babies just don't work. Things are always changing, whether its my stand on things or my taste in clothes now. This morning I was thinking to myself about friends. Sure I have lots of them, but who are the ones who call you back, or just call to say hi? Who only calls when they only need something? Who makes time for me when I need it? Who has been there for Liam? Who would stand behind me in my worst hour? Sadly I have to say I don't think all of my "friends" would do all of those things. Now my close and best friends surely they all would be those things without any doubt to me. But some of my more distant friends, well I think its time for me to stop being all of those things to them when its just a one way street. Its not a popularity contest anymore, high school is long over. Its all about quality these days, not quantity. So to my close friends, my role models, my family....thank you for just being yourselves. Each and every one of you make me feel loved and cared for everyday and that's what matters the most:) Everyday has its choices, and today's choice was to reflect on relationships. Past and present. Its my choice how important or unimportant these relationships are and whether I want to keep certain people in my life or not. So from here on out, I'll let some relationships slip away and I'll continue to be all the things I want in a friend to my friends. Plain and simple enough I think:)